Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense pain around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose unusual remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive treatment only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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